Poetic Peace

 Submission

( a villanelle )

His seductive smile dominates my daily flights of fantasy

and his cashmere caress lights a candle deep inside

but all I have to offer is myself- which I’ll submit willingly

when I’m with him and my heart feels as free as air

and he seems to find that timid and terrified lil’ girl trying to hide

from his seductive smile that dominates my daily flights of fantasy.

When he examines my soul through my eyes, I take him there

to allay the angry black woman, yet allowing her to sustain her pride

remembering all I have to offer is myself- which I’ll submit willingly

when he secures this sensation of strength, I can climb the highest stair

and he promises to protect my soul through the rough ride

if his seductive smile doesn’t dominate my daily flights of fantasy.

When I can close my eyes and allow him to take me anywhere

and he nurtures the naked wounds staying ‘til the tears subside

recognizing all I have to offer is myself- which I’ll submit willingly

when I forget about forcing it and allow it to flow as freely as air

and I open up and expose my emotions, then trust taking him inside

where his seductive smile dominates my daily flights of fantasy

for all I have to offer is myself- which I submit willingly.

Light in the Loneliness

If I say it out loud

then she’s really real

I can no longer cloud

the darkness I feel

Alone with my words

I pretend her voice wasn’t really what I heard

She taunts me

with vile self deprecating demands

that vividly haunt me

making me feel I could never wash the blood from my hands

I know I’m not crazy

not am I anything like lazy

but visions and voices persist

and the demons drain the life from my body I’m convinced

who do I confide in

when words and solitude are the only are the only things I find light in

In my poems I can fake normalcy

hide behind sonnets and ballads and hope no one will notice the real me

or realize that she only manifests by means of migraines

she cries quietly through quatrains and couplets

riddled with rhetorical rhymes of woe and regret

of a life that can never really be mine

always out sorts, surviving on borrowed time

like I can never quite find the right rhyme

to help me express

the only light I find in this dreadful loneliness 

Irrational need

The seasons go and come

blizzards and blazing days

without you’re my soul suffers severe malaise

I go limping through life numb

I need your love like I need nouns and verbs

they can erect empires from ashes

allow ice ages to progress though the stages

wait for the earth to fall off it’s axis

and the sun to explode into a supernova

but as long as you love me it ain’t ova

I need you to need me like water needs H and 2 O’s

ultimatums and egos

let the wars begin and end

this can't be the way that we go

just say you’ll love me ‘til time stands still, we can figure out the winner then.

I need your love like I need keys on this laptop to type

cuz you’ve always been my spell check when I’m too narcissistic to make it right

dreams are dreadful if you aren’t the star

I’m sure I hover when you’re home but I just want to be wherever you are

I could hit the power ball

and I’d tell them to keep it all

if I didn’t have you in my corner honey

what use to me is all that money

I need your love like I need adjectives

with out you I’d have a life dull and unimaginative

because nothing matters ‘less it’s where you is

I need your love

Crack of dawn

In the brief indigo silence of dawn

I hear the rain skipping across the lawn

and the somber songs of the rain

as it explodes on the window pane

I’m tired and I have a migraine

but I can’t complain

because although outside it’s groggy

I got my sunshines inside, meeting me with a ‘good mornin’ mommy’